What do you do when no one is looking or around?

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Thumb sucking. No idea why.

I let my eyes glaze as I try to physically will myself into imaginary worlds.

When no one is looking, I make silly faces a lot of the time.

When no one is around, probably a lot of literal singing about what I'm doing. "I'm washing these dishes, yeah yeah yeah"

Oh god you remind me that I belt out in singing constantly whenever I think no one can hear.

Sometimes when no one is around, I will focus my hand on a particular object in my vicinity and try to move it with my mind.

I know that it will never work, but what if it's just because I believe it'll never work that causes it to never work?

Nexeria wrote:Sometimes when no one is around, I will focus my hand on a particular object in my vicinity and try to move it with my mind.

I know that it will never work, but what if it's just because I believe it'll never work that causes it to never work?

You could be like Neo from the Matrix... trying to move the spoon and he can't until he believes he can.

You have to remember. There is no spoon.

I... read... and... Jesus Christ I'm boring. I guess I talk to myself in the mirror sometimes.

Thade wrote:I... read... and... Jesus Christ I'm boring.  I guess I talk to myself in the mirror sometimes.

Oh, I do that too! The... uh... conversation can get a little hectic. I usually wind up getting angry with the guy in the mirror.

I go on long rants about things I don't care about.

I practice for situations I expect to happen, so when they happen I seem witty and quick.

But then they never actually happen, and you just wasted twenty minutes talking to yourself.

I like to figure out how many hours I have left to live if I die at a reasonable age like... say 80. If I die when I'm 80, that means that I only have about 525,600 hours left to live. Take a third of that away for sleeping and its even less. Only 350,800 hours of conscious life. That's what I can reasonably expect if I can live to 80.

Thade wrote:But then they never actually happen, and you just wasted twenty minutes talking to yourself.

Or worse, the conversation DOES happen but under the wrong context and I'm caught flat footed, unable to use my practiced response.

I usually plan out these scenarios in my head when I'm laying down trying to sleep.

They usually end up becoming my dreams and I will feel like they actually happened and have to remind myself that they didn't.

Another one, when I'm really bored, I carefully examine every single item on my desk.

I've done that before.

Sometimes, I go deep into YouTube and watch pimple popping and cyst removal videos. They are oddly satisfying to watch. Especially bot fly removal videos.

I don't have enough of a stomach for that kind of thing. Can't take it. Botflies especially.

Megan, I do that to! With the sleeping thing, not the cyst video thing...

It's the only way I can fall asleep, actually.

Haha, I've completely desensitized myself to anything gross on the internet now because of that.

And yeah, when I think of these scenarios, it's like movies in my head and movies put me right to sleep so easily.

Glad I'm not the only one. XD

Yeah, makes life feel less dooming and alone.

I am depressing.

Freudian free association with myself.

Thade wrote:Freudian free association with myself.

Huh, that's interesting.